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I'm Nothing Without My Writing

kim | 01 December, 2005 08:03

When I had the kid I was overjoyed. I could not believe that something so perfect and tiny came from me. Ultimately it's Divine Wisdom that put the kid together, but I didn't do nothing for 10 months (they lie, it's really 10 months). Despite the nursing problems and the childcare problems and the isolation problems, I was so in love with the kid that the desire to work really went by the wayside. At the same time, I missed that part. I just didn't have the energy to write or to think about building a business. I was pumping oxytocin and had had no sleep. I don't know how it is for all mothers, but I wished there were three of me: the mother, the woman who formerly had time to watch alot of reruns and get pedicures, and the writer. Writing takes alot of energy for me as does acting. They are solitary, selfish careers in which the writer (or especially) actor spends not only hours a day on her craft, but more hours obsessing about herself. Even though I could clock in at one plus a quarter of my former self on the scale, I was not able to successfully split up myself, squeeze extra hours out of the day or able to leave my child for a minute more than I did, which was not very much.

So when I get a little chunk done, as I just did, I feel like my old self again and it feels good.

[Reply]

YAY! here's to inhabiting a bit of our old self, stepping into that suit, zippin' it up and strutting around for a while! congratulations to you my dearest dear!!!

kyra | 01/12/2005, 15:26

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It's only the tip of the iceberg... It gets much worse believe me. MUCH WORSE! I applaude your optimistic outlook. Did I mention MUCH WORSE.

Kitten | 02/12/2005, 00:01

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